Moving Through Quicksand

My fingers are poised over the keypad.

You have no idea how long it took me to get there and formulate the thoughts in my head to press the keys that would form the words and eventually the sentences that appear here on this page. I’m currently experiencing a condition that is commonly known as severe lack of motivation. Every day I go through the motions of life of waking up, brushing my teeth, getting dressed, going to work, sitting in front of the computer, coming home, eating dinner, getting online, going to bed and doing it all over again the next day. I’m having my very own Ground Hog’s Day experience.

What’s worse is knowing that I’m in this never-ending cycle. I almost think it would be better to be completely unaware like a robot. It’s like moving through quicksand. The harder I try to get out of it, the deeper I sink.

Something said by somebody important during one of the Ted talks I watched recently has stood out and stuck in my head. You’d think it be something inspiring, but it was actually depressing and made me think about the condition I’m in now. To think that of the two groups of people in the world there exists, that I’m in the camp that simply endures life and waits for the weekend is sad. But I can’t deny it, which makes it even more sad.

So as you can see, I’ve lost my motivation and I’m desperately searching for it. I certainly hope that whatever terrible funk I’m in now doesn’t last long ‘cause it sure is depressing.